You think you know me
So safe in my calm demeanor
It elevates your trust
Soothes your overactive mind.
I lure you with promises
Of warmth and comfort
Come further into my lapping arms
Let down your guard and let me in.
I give and you take
It’s always been that way
You are lulled into this
False send of complacency.
Then when I need
You are not there
You walk away not willing to give
In this one-sided relationship.
So I swell and I ache
I rage within at the unfairness
Until my emotions burst forward
And I am no longer calm.
I am chaos unleashed
As my anger lifts into waves of despair
My colors reflect my emotion, my disappointment
My unwillingness to remain still and let you have your way.
So Out! Out with your faking
Your convenient lovemaking
I soar and I flow
I ride the waves of my freedom.
If you stay, I will take you under
and plunder that wretched heart
That never put me first
I will no longer take part in your selfishness.
I rise. I rise until what I was
Is no longer here
Until I am washed clean
Of all that was you.
Then I calm. I am soothed
I no longer feel battered and abused
And I wait to see
Who may finally love me for me.